Hello, blog friends! I hope that you are having a wonderful Wednesday! It is finally sunny and gorgeous here. While Montana springs are usually moderate and beautiful, this year's spring has been cold, gray, and rainy. Last week I had to wear a fleece jacket to stay warm outdoors (and, um, indoors). Crazy! I'm so glad that the solstice brought summer weather with it.
Unfortunately, pregnancy seems to be preventing me from enjoying my usual summer exploits. Due to the heat and sun, I don't feel like I can safely hike mountains as I normally would. Even the farmer's market has been difficult to enjoy because the morning sun seems to make me extremely nauseous. Yuck. But I am still enjoying my little growing bean, and have been able to do less intense walks and hikes, as well as taking the pups to the dog park regularly.
It's interesting -- being preggo means that I have to listen even more closely to what my body needs. For example, at dinner I usually eat a mondo salad, which accounts for almost all of my produce intake for the day. But now my body does not like having large meals, and so I am learning to modify my ingrained habits (plus, salads now make me gag). That also means taking a nap when I feel tired (which is often), eating more healthy fats than I'm used to (I have been craving burgers and full fat cheese), and taking things slower (I get out of breath much, much faster).
All that to say -- I think this pregnancy is teaching me really important things about my body and intuition. Through my years of eating disorder therapy and beyond, that is the one thing that I never felt comfortable with. I could never give up my control -- I had to exercise a certain amount, and eat certain things in a certain way. Now I'm having to throw my white-knuckled control out the window -- and even if the results of that are imperfect, that's no bad thing.
Do you like to control things, or are you more intuitive and flexible? How do you balance the two?