Friday, February 24, 2012

Beauty From Ashes

Beauty From Ashes

These past few weeks have been so challenging.  Up and down . . . and down . . . and down -- that's what it's felt like, emotionally.  The grief has been hard.  I feel physically beaten and so very exhausted.  Even blogging has been difficult.

But last weekend I did manage to create some art, and I'm very proud of it.  The title of the above piece is "Beauty From Ashes," and that is my strongest hope for my life right now -- that God will take the horror and pain of losing a child and turn it into something lovely.  I can already see that He's been doing just that, but over the past few weeks I feel like I have become blind and deaf to Him.

But I still believe.  It's all that I can do.

"Beauty From Ashes" is available for purchase as a print here.


  1. [...] song has been on repeat on my iPod since Eve died.  It has become my anthem.  As I wrote yesterday, the hope that I am clutching to through the questions and tears and darkness is that God will make [...]

  2. "...but I still believe- it's all that I can do." <3

  3. Beautiful!!! I cant wait to get my card's.
    Sorry you are struggling- so am I. I have actually been up for twenty four hours.
    Thank the Lord we have him to lean on, and the comfort of other mommies.
    I read a lot of Eves story today I will be back soon to read more. I loves Eve name in the snow, I haven't seen any of that stuff in ages. It was 80 degrees in LA today.
    Sending you blessings and saying a prayer for you tonight.

  4. Oh I hope you get some sleep soon! After Eve died, I couldn't sleep for weeks. It was horrible, to stay awake for days on end, alone with the grief and pain, without respite. Yuck!


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