Sunday, February 5, 2012

{Sad Hope Songs} "Beautiful Things" by Gungor



This is the first song that I listened to after Eve died.  It was passed on to me by a friend.  At first I could not listen to it -- I didn't want the darkness that the song talks about, the dark that beauty is born out of.  But as I began to throw myself on the Lord in my desperation for answers, this song kept coming back to mind.

Now, exactly 10 weeks from the day that I birthed my daughter's body, I am able to say yes -- give me the beautiful things, please.  If I have to have the dark, then redeem it, Father. You're the only one who can.

I hurt so much.

Every Sunday I share a song that has particularly soothing or healing to me since my daughter, Eve, was stillborn.  I call these kinds of song "sad hope songs," because they are usually melancholy sounding but also full of the beautiful hope that is born out of pain.  To pass a song onto me, please leave your recommendation in the comments. 


7 comments:

  1. I have never heard of this song and I'm so grateful you shared it...I have found that certain songs really give words to the feelings I am experiencing. It's hard to believe its been ten weeks for you, eleven for me, since our precious ones have gone to Heaven. Sometimes it feels like moments ago...and sometimes it feels like years. Sending you love...

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  2. Love that song! And so much more by them. Here are a couple of the many songs I've clung to in the last few months. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UIwRiDym3Xc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2f1bcJopx54
    Bless you, Beth. <3

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  3. Thanks for sharing those songs, Erin! I love Sandra McCracken, so anything new featuring her is great. And I am excited to hear the second song. Thank you!

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  4. Ugh I feel the same way Alison -- I react by thinking, "It's only been 10 weeks?" and "It's already been 10 weeks?" It feels like a death march. But I am glad that you like the song! It has been stuck in my head for 2 days, for which I am grateful.

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  5. You don't know me, but I have followed your blog for a while. Here is my small offering: Sara Groves "Open My Hands".

    Here is the story behind the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6-odcjKk6o&fe...
    And the song itself: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8XoFUhCjnJk&fe...

    Praying for you the peace of conscience, joy in the Holy Spirit, fruition of God's presence, and the promise of his face in the next life that he gives to those who are His.

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  6. thanks so much, emily -- for the songs and your prayers. can't tell you how much it means. xoxo

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  7. Ahh, another favorite. I have this listed on my "Hope After Abortion" page on my blog. I've never seen this version of it live, so thank you for sharing! :)

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